Taking the Risk once more..Its not ending the same

2010-01-29T06:08:00.001-08:00

stuck here,
trying to draw a tiger. =.="
but it feels good to be drawing after like 3/4 mths?

2010-01-28T05:38:00.000-08:00

LOVES HISTORY!
currently, history rocks(:
erm.
nth much to say actually.
dead blog anyways.
pretty busy nowadays as compared to the last two yrs?
ah well.
life is nvr perfect is it?

needs to talk,
yet finds no one to call.
and your face pops up,
yet, you and i are...
history.
its sad.
sometimes i wish i didnt do it.
yet i noe if i didnt i would be worse off.
its a new year,
a new class.
will i fit in?
am i fitting in?
i dont know.
all i know is that i still miss 203.
302 is a great class too,
just that what im missing is a thing that only 203 has.
it is kinda late to say all this but,
the feeling just comes.

2009-12-14T05:08:00.000-08:00

okayyy...
so.
im currently in m'sia, and will be here for quite sometime...
and interesting things happened during this whole darn holiday,
dramatic stuff, crazy stuff, wonderfully stuff, heartbreaking stuff, stupid stuff, yeah and the list goes on...
basically, interesting.
so basically, my mind is kinda fried due to the mixture of boredom and whatnot.
wont be surprised if i happen to go overdrive next year studying... x.x

and, guess what.
i found reading the houseofnight series and playing sims2 much more addictive than reading thetwilightsaga and playing audi respectively.for the moment.
so,yeah.
havent been playing audi for quite sometime now and been reading the series like crazy =X
hopefully, i wont get kicked outta the fam...TT

有位病人，他的病痛被一位医生治好了，原本以为不用再活得那么痛苦了，
没想到，医生开的药，起了副作用，将他的痛在加深了。
看医生，有何用？
不如等，让那伤口自己医好，让身体的免疫力提高，就不必再感觉到那痛了。

假期真的有够纳闷的=.="

2009-12-05T17:26:00.000-08:00

故事，又到了一个段落。
很奇怪的，作者又把这一段的结局，写得跟上一段的一样。
作者就那么爱作弄他的故事里的人物吗？
甚至把主角，一而再，再而三，的折磨。
作者唯一不知道的是，主角的心灵，已不堪一击了。
可是，掌握着故事如何发展下去，主角的命运如何的力量，并不属于故事里的人物，而是写着这残酷的故事的作者。
那主角多么希望残酷的故事高峰可以快点结束，早点到达那故事的美好结局。
若达不成，主角真希望能让作者就此停笔，不要再继续下去了，或把故事毁了也好，就是不要再写了。
难道作者没想到，这种快达到变态的境界的故事，会畅销吗？
时间不早了，作者已经没有时间再浪费下去了。。。
他还有多几个稿子得赶完呢。。。

2009-11-16T02:48:00.000-08:00

3AH.

so..the results of the streaming exercise is out.
whats done is done,
cant be changed,
well, technically it still can, but wont be allowed to so, yeah..
lols.
load of crap.
i dont know what i should be feeling right now after the results are out.
i dont know what the hell im feeling now.
its just..
numb.
like im subdued by that fact.
but why?
there are people out there that i know of,
dying and are envious of my getting into triple science.
but then i ask,
is this what i really want?
well,
no point asking now isn't it?
its way too late.
even if i could, i wouldn't be allowed to.
yup.
that's the important thing - be allowed to do something.
getting the permission to do something.
its all just down right irritating.
ah well,
i guess its just been on my mind for sometime.
and
alot has happen since my last post.
class outing...
fam outing..
and stuff as such.
its way too much to talk about it in this one post.
and,
im not in the mood anyway.
so,
yeah.
cya guys around ;)

2009-11-05T05:06:00.000-08:00

haiz...im bored..
sick and tired of life.
as in,
its no-life at all at home kays?
unless u call this-
"waking up,
eat,
read,
play,
slp."- life,
i have nothing to say.
LOL
anyways,
i lvled in audi to lvl 13!^^
hahas
heck.
im B-O-R-E-D.
byes(:

2009-10-18T07:01:00.000-07:00

hey,
now i think of it,
the end of the sec2 year is nearing vry quickly.
that sucks.
that seriously fucking sucks.

2009-10-18T06:06:00.000-07:00

RIP.
*bows*

well,
its not much but just a rightful funeral...
yeah..
kinda bored by it..
but its the funeral that suits just right,
one that is very suitable to this blog,
which has died a quiet death.

LOL
ok.
thats crap.im not reali myself today.
ok.
so,
erm.
"god! Jiahui! stop stammering/stuttering for god's sake! its only a BLOG!
its not like you are taking oral once again!!"
sorry,*cough* that was my self-conscience screaming to me.
well, *whacked by that devil on my shoulder*
yesterday was kinda fun.
adding in the fact that i was kinda woken up at 6.30am by my parents&sis who were goin out
since i cldnt get back to slp, i kinda strt up my com at round 6.35? after they left.
and i played till 10.45 to meet up wif ly to get to ms salihah's hse^^
cld say that i plyed my full of audi! XD
after that, got to her hse, had fun,
went to tampinese one once again and plyed in the arcade(: loved it.
*press* *fast forward*
*brr* *brroooommm* *brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*
today.
finally had the chance and watched 流行花园花样男子.. i got the name right, right?
lols
anyways, watched finish the first disk today.
went swimming
and now, play com(:
well, my life IS boring.
...
...
...
*zzz...*
*snores...*
*whacked!~(angel&devil)*
oh erm.
yeah.
thats it.

erm
whatever. as you guys can see,
im seriously going kinda bonkers today.
ever since i got back frm safra, i've been in a kinda bad mood.
and
during one of the parts of that korean drama which is s'posed to make me laugh,
i was crying cause of somethings i was thinking bout.
weird isnt it?
@$*#&!%^*&#%
lol.
i've been thinking a tad too much bout things nowadays.
like i told fs, i might just be falling into depression!?
LOL.
joke.its a joke.
ha.ha.

lols enuf of my crapping.
cheers ;D

And the point is...?

2009-10-08T05:51:00.000-07:00

what reali is the point of all this?
what is the point of having this type of things in my life,
when all its purpose is to make me feel bad?
it makes me miserable,
it makes me wanna give up.
maybe i should just give up?
if things dont change,
i really will not give a damn anymore.
this time,
i meant it.

EOY FEVER!~

2009-10-04T06:37:00.001-07:00

well, just came to say
good luck to all the 203-ers for the EOYs this two weeks(:
its just two mre weeks and no mre work for the next few months!XD
but that means theres steaming... and that means sec3...
that means that 203 will be splittin up soon..
some will get into the same classes, others will not...
does that mean that i will be splittin up wif fs, jq and yt?
shitty mans...
heck larh..
will leave all these worrying till after the exams(:
jiayous! its the last leg of the race, CHIONG ARH! XD
but, point is,
treasure the time u have left with the class,
you have only a few months left...

DEAD DEAD DEAD blog><

2009-09-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

well apparently my blog's dead...
LOL
im just gonna talk to myself(:
hahas...
going kinda crazy over the past few days...
erm, well, reason being that:
for one, the exams are coming soon,(in 11 days?according to the board in class)
after streaming means that sec3 coming, which isnt reali a good thing,
c4d IS SO NOT cooperating wif me...as in it goes "not responding" after i did almost evrything
and HAVENT saved... that repeated quite a few times in fact...
yet mainly its due to some reali personal reasons..

lols bunch of crap yeah?
im stil stuck in c4d..
now the D&T car's malfunctioning after that fall...
so stressed..
mdm a was like sitting beside me thru the eng lsn, telling me to kip an eye on km...
stressed out..
and then that damn math teacher...
dn like having that empty seat beside me..

i seriously nidda get on wif the 3d model...
haiz..
Cheers(:
it hurts to look at my phone, and yet find nothing but an empty wallpaper,
without the notification of your sms...im not even hoping for a call, just an sms will do..
i know i sound desperate, yet you have cause me into this...or maybe its just that i shldnt have
taken the first step that you wanted me to, the step that caused my to fall into this endless pit...
it is sweet, yes i admit, at times, yet at most, its heart wrenching...

2009-09-07T00:56:00.000-07:00

YO!~
today rocks!!!^^
*i shall forget the fact that i have to wake up at 8 am*
*and that i had to go sch to do D&T*
helped xinying do D&T and got treated bbt =DD

now,
im doing the chi e-learning...
which apparently isnt getting much progress as im currently blog hopping
AND facebook-ing(:
but im a "good" girl and will get it done... EVENTUALLY(:
hahas...

oh.
im getting my new phone(:
trading in my old one...
samsung preston(: ^.^ XD ^o^
bye bye sony erricsson(: (not forgetting dear old lumines blocks and SIMS 2! XD)
hahas...
cheers(:

2009-08-26T01:07:00.000-07:00

i dn fcking noe how to write a poem.
the one i wrote sucks like(is should be more like it) hell.
ah.
heck.
i. shall. go. write. about. the. three. little. pigs.
lols
not that i reali hate lit
or dn like it..
actually i like the novel analysis part alot!
i just hate the poems..
not the analysis..thats ok..
but writing it..
if a girl cant write a poem,
why force her to write one?
you cant force a person to write good, original poems can you?
if u can, then u pro lorh
but if someone is more prone to the other way of expressing themselves,
why use this way to press down their creativity by killing their brain cells?

whatever...
crapped a whole lot of stuff up there ^
might have even got off track..

ACTUAL post

2009-08-24T04:58:00.000-07:00

hahas
well..
我只能说我还是很烦。
i know i know...你们听了也烦...
what ever larh...
cant fucking give a damn...

23August(:
我不会忘了这一天，是所谓的终生难忘吧
thanks,
it was a great day.^^

Drama Journal

2009-08-24T04:51:00.000-07:00

ah...
well,
pardon me
but i reali dn wanna write
so i type(:

24August:
"Observation is your best teacher/tutor"
Mr Loy strted the lesson wif that...
well,
at least that is what i heard him repeating(?) so many times till it was stuck in my head..><"
lols
anyways..
we had to like...erm..
be normal.
dn exaggerate?
i think so...
well at least thats the gist of it..
cheers(:

十万个为什么。。。我的改编版！(:

2009-08-21T22:55:00.000-07:00

为什么事情就一定要复杂化呢？
为什么活在这世界上就一定要有烦恼？
为什么生活就是那么烦躁？

"我，
为什么那么白痴？"
有时，这句话是别人对我说的，
可是，也有些时候，
这是我骂自己的一番话。
这句话出现在我脑海里的次数已经越来越多了。。。
好烦好烦哦。。。

有时候，
真想大声的呐喊
“啊。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。!!!”
只是，在这无聊的社会里，
我会被骂成一个神经病，
一个不为他人难得安宁的空间着想。
那我想问，
有没有人顾虑过我的感受？
应该是没有吧。。。
哈哈。。。
我的生活道路上，
又出现了一道光。
我一定要抱握住。
永远都不放下。。。。

2009-08-18T04:43:00.000-07:00

argh.
something vry vry wrong with blogger....
TT
cant see my cbox
cant see the background...
argh crap..
i wan to slp...
mdm a not coming to sch for..sosososo happy!!!!^^
2 wks..
dno why...
haiz...^^

2009-08-17T05:26:00.000-07:00

i decided.
i wont post on sch stuff.
since:
1) i dn think theres anyone reading my blog anyways.
2) i mostly cant rmb(STM rmb?) anything when i come infrnt of the com except i wanna ply audi and who to 整 on FFS on facebook.....=="
3) its boring.................evry one does it....ok no offence but im a lil bored and unusual.
(theres a reason why im called lobster and once dumbo the elephant...im so thankful for being called lobster now instead of the latter.....><)

LOL
anyways,
theres something else...
im supposed to keep a drama journal...
and our dear mr ian loy said can post on blog too...
so yeah..
i HAVE nothing better to do...

~DRAMA JOURNAL~
right.
17/08/2009
second official session of the improvisation workshop..
right.
er.
the scriptless script.
i gotta get the who what when where how in place...
who- age, occupation, education lvl and statues
thats last wk..
today was bout how like if i am given the role of a blind person,
i AM the blind person
instead of
i TRY TO BE the blind person
so i typically am the person i act instead of just trying to act out that role...
hmm..
chimalogy.
have to take some time to digest...
and the bus stop thing?
have to stop acting too much and be more REAL......
ahh welll(:
the end my dear dear diary/blog/journal^^

lols i guess i will be posting these weekly frm nw on... XD
cheers ;D

2009-08-12T04:37:00.000-07:00

BEING SICK IS SO NOT FUN.
haiz..
i have two, yea not one but two, diff pills for sore throat.
and two diff pills for fever.
sucks.
and i have to take two each time.
(2+2)x2=8.
smart.
and right now, i feel like my nose is gonna drop off anytime soon.
why?
due to intensive rubbing using facial tissue
and occasional toilet paper(CLEAN)
argh..
i wanna get well soon...

i still have tons of projects not done..damn..
STRESSED! ><
well,
cheers ppl(:

hopefully
this time we will be able to make it for the date(:
im reali looking forward to it..
hope its the same for you too(:

2009-08-06T04:59:00.000-07:00

haiz...
today got scolded by THAT person....
stupid..
idiotic...
unreasonable...

arh heck care..
tmr going out!(:with him!!!(:
lols...
itss.......
idk larh(:

2009-08-05T03:23:00.000-07:00

the past few days were kinda fine..

well.
truth is,
i cant reali rmb clearly what happened..
facts are:
i got suckish marks for chi ):
my record mark in eng(:
might just have a date wif him!!XD
haiz...
not confirmed...
nervous!what if he runs once he sees me?!AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!><
there's pe tmr..
:DDD
cant wait...!~
stupid c4d...
cant do the animation for ant!!TT
hahas...
hopefully he wont be disappointed...
hopefully he doesnt run when he sees me...
hopefully he still loves me as much as i do after he sees me...
hopfull...

cheers(:

2009-08-01T04:03:00.000-07:00

RIght..
to think i just said i wldnt be having pizza hut delivery soon...
thing is,
i just ordered pizza,
ate it,(not alone...==)
and...
it actually came earlier than the time the person stated!=.=
retarded ppl.
they really cant be ON TIME can they?
well,
being early is better than late(:
but better late than nvr as well(=

cheers(:

2009-07-31T06:51:00.000-07:00

today....
was...
overall a great day..
if u dont count almost falling alslp in mdm abey's lesson...
getting crap from some ppl...
having a mr low look alike for physics...
an idiotic teacher teaching us chi drawing..
it was GREAT(:
thanks to the teddy bear and the sweet(which was unfortunately left in class><...TT) and the card that was given by the girls(:

2009-07-29T05:08:00.000-07:00

well...

im broke.
but its worth it(:
i love 203 '09 girls loads^^

oh.
pizza hut officially suck.
i dont think im ordering delivery from them again any time soon.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going crazy,
soooo.....
beware(:<
why?
cause of:
tests
teachers
parents
ppl.
heheh.

cheers ;D

2009-07-26T04:40:00.000-07:00

well,
no offence to the management of blogger or what so ever,
but.
i gotta say..
one thing i dont like alot bout blogs is that..
its frustrating how it seems like you are talking to yourself at times..
thats one thing i seriously dont like......
haiz..

2009-07-26T01:04:00.000-07:00

Saturday was GREAT!(:
although towards the end of the day..
well, things took a turn for the worst...><
forget it..its over anyways...
we'll beat them next time^^
03 girls jyjyjys! can do it derh!
i just found out how much i loved 203..=D

very very very bored.

balls balls and more balls..==

2009-07-23T06:08:00.001-07:00

haiz..
injured today.=="
HOPEFULLY(i pray pray pray hard><) my dear leg is ok by this saturday...
cant bear to miss the games!T.T(if not i reali cry!T_T)
well..
no matter what i stilll playing(:
who ask ppl to sabo me as vice-captain== hah!now its a good excuse^^
anyways...
dont worry too much k?
concentrate in class larh...
ily and i will take care of myself derh(:
this is stupid.
i nid to off com.
NOW.
ahhh welll....
can still sms people(:

2009-07-22T03:33:00.000-07:00

well........

im speaking to my self again..
argh!
cant be bothered that much.(:
welll...
saying iloveyou came easily with him..
maybe its real this time?
lols..but its kinda weird..
you noe..
counting the fact that i never met him before..
i keep asking myself how is this possible?...
well, life is full of surprises..
so expect the unexpected(:
someday,
i will post in chi.
SOMEday. no idea when ><
ahh..
sch.
now.
it doesnt reali suck, excluding the whole hordes of class tests coming on..
but i stil like sch(:

cheers ;D

2009-07-21T04:56:00.000-07:00

haiz.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

sure cant post so often lerh..
at most once per 2days?
haiz........................
things are getting worse off..
whts wrong?
but now im have him to add on to my frens....
glad to have them around..
well...
i gtg...
haiz..
who's readin anyways?lol.
cheers(:

reasons

2009-07-19T05:34:00.000-07:00

why i started blogging again?
its cause i reali cant take it any more.
you get it?
get the feeling?
...
i feel like im going to

BLOW

anytime soon...
you know,
like a volcano.

because,
i really have no idea what is happening to me.
what is happening to my attitude towards certain people.

This, is what will happen to me if it continue:
i will keep asking myself, "what the hell's happening to me?"
till i go crazy.

well,
life sucks.):
but as usual,
it has its perks.(:
either way,
it still has to go on.
i wont choose to end it now.
cause i have too many important things to keep me here.
unfinished business...
and,
important people.

hopefull,
this will help...
well,
cheers ppl (: